To myself in May 2012, to be opened and reread, and also reflected upon:

My “goal” upon entering this program was basically to reward myself of this dream that I have always had since I learned about what is “identity” and my own being. I wanted to see what it would be like to live in my hometown and grow up as if I had never left. I know I would not ever get that original feeling, but I wanted something close. I wanted to test myself also, who am I, who I could have been, and who I am capable of becoming. I wanted to meet local Chinese friends, and sure maybe meet a Chinese (or Chinese American) boy or so. But learning Chinese was never the priority, although quite the side dish that comes with this whole semester. There is so much to say, so much to hope for, to dream, but I just want to be happy and enjoy this last opportunity to solidify my personal identity. Who I am - that’s the ultimate goal.